1 00:00:52,501 --> 00:00:58,067 James Kimberley Griffith 2 00:00:59,507 --> 00:01:01,507 See I... 3 00:01:03,799 --> 00:01:06,024 The thing about life is... 4 00:01:09,712 --> 00:01:11,712 A what is it they say? 5 00:01:12,713 --> 00:01:15,638 The thing about life is... 6 00:01:30,086 --> 00:01:35,710 I'm 29 today. Won't see 30 7 00:01:38,483 --> 00:01:43,712 But I'm uh... I'm okay. Really. Okay 8 00:02:29,965 --> 00:02:36,170 My mate Davy. He's been helping out since he was made redundant 9 00:02:36,295 --> 00:02:43,827 He was head of a PR firm that...A Jesus I don't really know what they did 10 00:02:48,274 --> 00:02:55,271 Thank God my sister Chloe's got her girls. She's taking it pretty badly 11 00:02:55,360 --> 00:02:59,667 Tries to hide it but... I just hate seeing it - There are people arriving 12 00:03:05,152 --> 00:03:09,294 Bill... ah he's so excited! 13 00:03:09,794 --> 00:03:14,149 I think he's just glad to be away from his girlfriend. And the TV job he hates 14 00:03:16,872 --> 00:03:21,010 He brought a tree with him that he grew from seed 15 00:03:21,135 --> 00:03:24,836 He's determined to plant it for me when we get there 16 00:03:25,602 --> 00:03:28,096 Ah, when we get there... 17 00:03:34,815 --> 00:03:42,506 My parents keep a brave face... but... no one should outlive their children 18 00:03:46,370 --> 00:03:50,502 The sicknes may be mine, but the tragedy is theirs 19 00:03:54,690 --> 00:03:57,411 I have to put a distance between me and all of this 20 00:03:58,893 --> 00:04:00,893 pitying looks. 21 00:04:05,784 --> 00:04:09,328 Oh Christ I need to escape! 22 00:04:09,627 --> 00:04:15,627 So my friends are taking me to my favourite place on earth 23 00:04:17,127 --> 00:04:19,441 Barafundle Bay 24 00:04:33,229 --> 00:04:37,601 Miles. Made it at last. Haven't heard from him in a while 25 00:04:37,726 --> 00:04:43,812 His dad died when we were 16. Cancer again. His dad was a writer 26 00:04:43,937 --> 00:04:47,008 Made us both want to be writers too 27 00:04:47,133 --> 00:04:53,460 Miles is at the pressure of expectation, I'm at the pressure of... time, I suppose 28 00:04:53,967 --> 00:04:57,479 Too much of it then, too little of it now 29 00:04:58,640 --> 00:05:01,710 - Miles? - You look like shit 30 00:05:02,479 --> 00:05:05,014 I thought they'd stuck you out here 'cos you'd snuffed it 31 00:05:05,045 --> 00:05:08,044 Having a pretty good day rhabdomyosarcoma-wise.. 32 00:05:08,147 --> 00:05:12,012 You, you, you... Jeeesus! 33 00:05:16,280 --> 00:05:21,072 No, no, absolutely not. I agreed to this whole trip and there's one condition 34 00:05:21,103 --> 00:05:23,103 No, he's not taking it! 35 00:05:26,105 --> 00:05:28,105 Take care, sis 36 00:05:36,242 --> 00:05:39,511 - Oh God. Aw! - He'll be fine 37 00:05:40,415 --> 00:05:42,415 I love you too 38 00:06:55,442 --> 00:07:01,032 No, Davy, Davy, Davy! Watch it, yeah? You ever played tetris? 39 00:07:01,063 --> 00:07:04,792 - Oh, James! No, I'll get that - I'm fine, I'm fine! 40 00:07:10,124 --> 00:07:13,417 - I'll get the cushion - No, no, not just yet. I... 41 00:07:13,448 --> 00:07:16,176 I'll get started under my on steam 42 00:07:18,046 --> 00:07:21,055 - Who wants to push me then? - Me. 43 00:07:32,917 --> 00:07:37,284 - It's a bit bumpy, isn't it? - Like sex with an anorexic 44 00:07:37,917 --> 00:07:39,771 How is Melissa? 45 00:07:39,772 --> 00:07:42,208 - She's fatter - Is she? 46 00:07:42,333 --> 00:07:44,333 Nothing wrong with that... 47 00:07:49,456 --> 00:07:52,208 How bloody beautiful is this! 48 00:07:53,833 --> 00:07:56,085 We need to get to Sound Point this evening 49 00:07:56,116 --> 00:07:58,916 Now we'll walk until James needs a rest 50 00:07:59,315 --> 00:08:01,315 No, I'm fine 51 00:08:03,338 --> 00:08:08,302 wanted to be agricultural story editor in the... - Do we have to talk about work? 52 00:08:08,540 --> 00:08:13,049 - No I don't - It's something some of us spend our lives doing 53 00:08:13,174 --> 00:08:16,010 Shut up Miles. Get a job 54 00:08:16,041 --> 00:08:18,041 Ladies 55 00:08:18,953 --> 00:08:20,953 - Malfunction everybody - Okay 56 00:08:21,291 --> 00:08:23,708 - I knew it! It's the weight, I'm telling you - What?? 57 00:08:24,026 --> 00:08:26,775 - Is it fucked? - Not on my shift. Alright, all aside! 58 00:08:28,999 --> 00:08:31,890 Alright, Davy, can you get me the toolbox? At the bottom 59 00:08:31,921 --> 00:08:34,962 I see the toolbox but I can't actually get it out cause it's way too much weight on the cart 60 00:08:34,993 --> 00:08:37,384 Okay, well start unpacking it then 61 00:08:37,567 --> 00:08:39,567 Gee weez! 62 00:08:40,070 --> 00:08:42,267 - If you'd let me! - Pull out an apple 63 00:08:42,298 --> 00:08:46,827 - You didn't just say 'gee wizz', Bill? - I did say 'gee wizz'. I'm exasperated 64 00:08:46,966 --> 00:08:52,239 Now get that webbing bag out of there and inside there's a little socket set and some pliers 65 00:08:52,270 --> 00:08:55,874 - Gee wizz! Look at that webbing bag! - Hey... 66 00:08:59,374 --> 00:09:00,946 Biscuits 67 00:09:00,947 --> 00:09:02,623 Great on their own 68 00:09:02,624 --> 00:09:06,907 But once they're dipped in tea they become a whole different journey 69 00:09:10,060 --> 00:09:12,189 Taking you to piss always makes me wanna piss 70 00:09:12,220 --> 00:09:16,728 You piss far more than I ever used too. Where's all this new piss coming from? 71 00:09:16,941 --> 00:09:20,640 - I'm not drinking more... - Would you shut the fuck up please? 72 00:09:26,832 --> 00:09:29,301 My makeup girl's reading one of your dad's books 73 00:09:29,332 --> 00:09:31,977 at work the other day... the Lebanon tree 74 00:09:32,246 --> 00:09:36,123 - How's your book coming on? - Oh, I gave up on it. Couldn't be arsed 75 00:09:37,458 --> 00:09:40,049 You should just write a diary about bangin' Chelsea chicks 76 00:09:40,174 --> 00:09:43,665 - I'm finally bored of meaningless sex - Bollocks! 77 00:09:43,790 --> 00:09:45,790 Alright I might as well piss now too 78 00:09:51,844 --> 00:09:57,001 You think that's the beetroot? Yeah... 79 00:09:59,207 --> 00:10:03,207 Bill, I'm just saying: we could stove some of the stuff here and pick it up on the way back 80 00:10:03,560 --> 00:10:06,445 Well if you girls hadn't packed your entire wardrobe 81 00:10:09,478 --> 00:10:11,204 How's work going? 82 00:10:11,205 --> 00:10:13,578 - You hate what I do - Only because you do 83 00:10:13,609 --> 00:10:17,075 - You writing? - I'm so bored with my book question, James 84 00:10:17,175 --> 00:10:19,707 I'm not a writer, I'm an ad man and I'm good at it 85 00:10:20,540 --> 00:10:25,045 - Did you get the short stories I sent you? - Yeah, the one about the biker was great 86 00:10:25,170 --> 00:10:27,149 Really great 87 00:10:27,150 --> 00:10:29,150 The one about the nurse - it was bollocks 88 00:10:29,188 --> 00:10:32,123 Well, I'm no writer, but I liked it 89 00:10:33,681 --> 00:10:35,681 - Good for you Davy - Waft! 90 00:10:37,235 --> 00:10:39,235 Waft! 91 00:10:44,565 --> 00:10:46,568 Oh my God! That's actually working 92 00:11:33,719 --> 00:11:36,261 Don't be angry. I told your mum I'd call her in a bit 93 00:11:36,292 --> 00:11:38,695 - Yeah and you just called her last night - I know, I promised 94 00:11:38,727 --> 00:11:39,996 Alright, alright! 95 00:11:39,997 --> 00:11:45,627 Tell her we have hope in our hearts and wings in our heels and after that no more phone calls 96 00:11:46,272 --> 00:11:49,372 And if you got your bloody phone on you I'll find it 97 00:11:52,191 --> 00:11:55,890 - Bill, we could just plant this tree - No! 98 00:12:01,497 --> 00:12:04,749 Sometimes I watch the credits and wait for the camera man 99 00:12:05,070 --> 00:12:07,893 Yeah, it's not Shakespeare but pays the mortgage 100 00:12:08,163 --> 00:12:10,701 Mate, Antiques Roadshow has a big audience 101 00:12:10,752 --> 00:12:13,096 I work on Cash in the Attic, Davy 102 00:12:14,268 --> 00:12:16,865 - Are you sure? - What? 103 00:12:20,898 --> 00:12:24,330 - Wait, The White Bull? Screw it! - I thought you knew where we were 104 00:12:24,376 --> 00:12:25,494 Yeah well I do now 105 00:12:25,495 --> 00:12:29,867 - My ‘Spidey Senses’ are tingling - Loving this, boys, lovin this! 106 00:12:29,901 --> 00:12:31,901 Hit it, lads! 107 00:12:41,312 --> 00:12:43,355 I'll get the beers then 108 00:12:43,963 --> 00:12:45,922 I'll have a Guinness 109 00:12:45,923 --> 00:12:48,270 Oi! alcohol and morphine don't mix 110 00:12:48,395 --> 00:12:54,288 I'll have never taken LSD And lost my shoes playing poker 111 00:12:54,413 --> 00:12:58,757 I've never had a bandit hold a gun to my head - I've never been to Birmingham 112 00:12:58,788 --> 00:13:01,665 - I've never sailed around... really? - No. 113 00:13:01,921 --> 00:13:04,988 What about when Mark was 18? - Was that Birmingham? 114 00:13:08,743 --> 00:13:12,622 Have you told him?... I miss you xx 115 00:13:33,705 --> 00:13:36,922 Don't you ever get the urge to do something really dangerous? 116 00:13:37,475 --> 00:13:40,877 Eat some undercooked pig 117 00:13:41,376 --> 00:13:45,746 I mean a real thrill, a man thrill - Steady! 118 00:13:46,246 --> 00:13:52,412 We've all forgotten that moment when you realize you'll never play in the World Cup Final 119 00:13:52,537 --> 00:13:57,037 or... be the first man on Mars... and all those daydreams 120 00:13:57,298 --> 00:14:00,888 become fantasies rather than possibilities 121 00:14:04,366 --> 00:14:06,496 I have no response to that 122 00:14:06,878 --> 00:14:10,373 This is nice though, isn't it? 123 00:14:10,498 --> 00:14:15,849 Yeah... Yes it is! 124 00:15:16,728 --> 00:15:18,728 Where did you get that watch? 125 00:15:19,231 --> 00:15:24,082 From my father. Birthday present. It's a Rolex Oyster Perpetual Sea-Dweller 4000 126 00:15:24,959 --> 00:15:26,959 Yeah your dad's a liar - it's a fake 127 00:15:27,162 --> 00:15:29,218 Fuck you! Nice. Give it to me! 128 00:15:29,370 --> 00:15:31,870 I'm gonna tel"em you asked to see my cock 129 00:15:33,745 --> 00:15:35,745 Do you like my wings? 130 00:15:35,953 --> 00:15:38,945 Give me the wach or I'll tear your fucking wings off! 131 00:15:45,203 --> 00:15:46,582 Don't want it anymore 132 00:15:46,583 --> 00:15:49,130 Don't like fakes - Yeah, me neither, come on! 133 00:15:54,194 --> 00:15:56,194 We're both better off 134 00:15:59,724 --> 00:16:04,147 Hey, poofter! What's the time? 135 00:16:28,618 --> 00:16:31,175 Brothers, this is not the way! 136 00:16:35,295 --> 00:16:38,911 I'm sorry. That was an accident 137 00:16:39,760 --> 00:16:44,277 He's like an Alsatian pup. he's one of those guys everyone just seems to love 138 00:16:45,265 --> 00:16:47,265 Nuts? 139 00:16:48,994 --> 00:16:51,994 Hold your fighting! Oi! Oi! 140 00:16:58,098 --> 00:17:01,111 - Davy, I'm going in. - This is what we were talking about 141 00:17:01,236 --> 00:17:05,322 - Your morphine chases. You're drunk - Maybe. A little 142 00:17:08,265 --> 00:17:12,388 - This is it - Maybe you should sit this one out 143 00:17:12,422 --> 00:17:14,029 - NO! - Sorry 144 00:17:14,030 --> 00:17:16,099 Davy, ramming speed! 145 00:17:24,277 --> 00:17:26,277 Hey! What are you doing? 146 00:17:31,306 --> 00:17:36,137 Not him! He's got cancer! I'm not shitting with you 147 00:17:37,415 --> 00:17:39,415 You don't hit people with cancer 148 00:18:01,562 --> 00:18:04,865 Sensible retreat but the tide was turning 149 00:18:40,576 --> 00:18:43,952 Why would you sleep naked in a tent with me? Cause it's like... 150 00:18:43,984 --> 00:18:46,055 Look I don't wanna feel you poking me in the back 151 00:18:46,086 --> 00:18:47,869 Yeah did you feel that in the middle of the night - What is that?? 152 00:18:47,870 --> 00:18:51,173 - I'm not gonna... - I think I farted, sorry... 153 00:18:52,421 --> 00:18:55,240 I don't know any adults who still use talcum powder 154 00:18:55,271 --> 00:18:57,271 I don't use talcum powder 155 00:18:58,167 --> 00:19:02,813 That's your boil skin flaking all over our lovely tent 156 00:19:03,473 --> 00:19:08,576 - Aw Jesus... - We laid the tent on a cow pat 157 00:19:08,701 --> 00:19:14,076 I knew that pillow was too good to be true 158 00:19:14,356 --> 00:19:17,732 I have an insight into what it's like to be one of your wank puppets 159 00:19:17,764 --> 00:19:19,764 Pretty great I'm told 160 00:19:21,847 --> 00:19:25,076 - Where are my clothes? - Mine are missing too 161 00:19:25,201 --> 00:19:27,201 Yes they are... 162 00:19:29,332 --> 00:19:32,679 All your spare clothes are missing 163 00:19:34,400 --> 00:19:37,347 Why? Why would you do this? Why? 164 00:19:38,363 --> 00:19:42,045 We have no need for the wasteful conforts of modern life 165 00:19:42,076 --> 00:19:44,169 - I'll fucking kill you!! - What?! 166 00:19:44,200 --> 00:19:47,182 We are going to experience the landscape 167 00:19:47,307 --> 00:19:50,878 A wardrobe from leaves and Kendal mint cake 168 00:19:50,909 --> 00:19:54,284 Don't chase him, you just encourage 169 00:19:54,409 --> 00:19:58,784 Don't wrestle again! I'm bored of seeing wrestles 170 00:19:59,627 --> 00:20:01,627 God, it's like deliverance 171 00:20:02,156 --> 00:20:04,564 That's it, I'm wearing your clothes if I get wet 172 00:20:11,721 --> 00:20:14,784 - Where are my digestifs? - Up my arse you prick! 173 00:20:15,206 --> 00:20:20,134 Now that is deeply, deeply, deeply disturbing 174 00:20:48,861 --> 00:20:52,575 - If the cart breaks... - Ah, get on, get a grip! 175 00:20:52,607 --> 00:20:55,086 - Come on, ok? - No! 176 00:20:55,117 --> 00:20:57,449 - No? Come on! - Steady boys 177 00:20:57,533 --> 00:21:00,144 Ok? Go, go, go! 178 00:21:34,116 --> 00:21:37,359 Hello there! We 4 would like to take the ferry 179 00:21:37,484 --> 00:21:39,749 - When? - Whenever it leaves 180 00:21:45,499 --> 00:21:47,661 Four. There are four of us... 181 00:21:51,076 --> 00:21:53,357 - And the cart. - Yes. 182 00:21:55,108 --> 00:21:57,108 Singles or returns? 183 00:21:57,263 --> 00:21:59,949 Return. But not today, we're camping 184 00:22:04,054 --> 00:22:07,366 - When you're coming back? - Saturday. Latest 185 00:22:11,030 --> 00:22:14,074 - Is he wearing eye make-up? - He is... 186 00:22:14,199 --> 00:22:17,263 - Four returns? - Yes. Does it run everyday? 187 00:22:17,489 --> 00:22:24,062 365 days a year, 24/7, first ferry leaves 6am, last ferry back 8pm 188 00:22:24,187 --> 00:22:28,013 No ferry at Christmas, New Year's day or Easter 189 00:22:28,239 --> 00:22:31,907 So it's neither 365 days a year, nor 24/7. 190 00:22:33,323 --> 00:22:35,922 Sell many returns, do you? 191 00:22:40,107 --> 00:22:42,107 What's your problem, mate? 192 00:22:42,845 --> 00:22:46,616 - I'm gonna have to charge you for the cart - Listen, Tootsie... 193 00:22:48,186 --> 00:22:52,742 I'll charge you for an extra passenger. How's that sound? 194 00:22:56,491 --> 00:22:58,839 Single or return for the cart? 195 00:23:55,052 --> 00:23:57,052 Fucking idiots! 196 00:24:11,403 --> 00:24:17,405 Jenna Jamesson is naked right there. Kristin Scott Thomas naked there 197 00:24:19,740 --> 00:24:21,740 Double barrel all the way 198 00:24:24,946 --> 00:24:27,875 Davy. Can't get up 199 00:24:27,906 --> 00:24:32,906 No, no,no. I'm okay. It's just a bit more than I'm used to 200 00:24:33,031 --> 00:24:36,051 Just need to take some meds, I'll be okay 201 00:24:48,090 --> 00:24:50,090 Don't tell the others 202 00:25:28,781 --> 00:25:30,781 Heaven 203 00:25:32,434 --> 00:25:34,434 D'you know, if this was heaven 204 00:25:35,381 --> 00:25:37,684 I'd be pretty fucking chuffed 205 00:25:41,630 --> 00:25:44,354 I like the way you subtly brought it back round to you dying 206 00:25:44,479 --> 00:25:46,479 I'd forgotten 207 00:25:56,158 --> 00:25:58,905 No, seriously though I don't believe in the pearly gates 208 00:26:01,078 --> 00:26:03,078 What do you think Davy 209 00:26:07,134 --> 00:26:10,189 Come on! - I don't know. I wanna 210 00:26:11,069 --> 00:26:17,062 believe in something like.. God. I do. I do. 211 00:26:17,712 --> 00:26:21,280 Reincarnation. Born again 212 00:26:21,909 --> 00:26:26,113 - As a Mollusc? - Don't piss on my Nirvana! 213 00:26:26,419 --> 00:26:32,378 No but seriously. Our souls... I don't know but I've done a lot of thinking 214 00:26:32,416 --> 00:26:35,311 and reading about it recently, of course, and 215 00:26:36,592 --> 00:26:39,634 I think it's got something to do with that magic science we 216 00:26:39,759 --> 00:26:43,447 barely know anything about like... dark matter 217 00:26:45,771 --> 00:26:50,101 Actually there's a belief in buddhist faith about a kind of constant energy 218 00:26:51,491 --> 00:26:54,603 Quantum physicists have proven its existence 219 00:26:56,298 --> 00:26:59,688 Perfect timeless universal space 220 00:27:00,888 --> 00:27:07,155 Yeah... What? 221 00:27:08,363 --> 00:27:13,505 It's just... like being, is-ness... 222 00:27:15,267 --> 00:27:19,738 I can't help but picture myself this dust dancing in the flicker light 223 00:27:22,201 --> 00:27:27,738 Millions of atoms of constant... is-ness 224 00:27:28,050 --> 00:27:30,571 What the fuck are you talking about?? 225 00:27:36,740 --> 00:27:40,703 Just picture me tapdancing in the firmament and I'll be well happy 226 00:27:47,983 --> 00:27:52,495 What do you think, Miles? what happens when we snuff it? 227 00:27:52,843 --> 00:27:55,373 - No idea - You must have thought about it 228 00:28:00,288 --> 00:28:03,154 What's your instinct? I wanna know 229 00:28:05,154 --> 00:28:09,041 After your 'dancing across the stars' do you wanna hear that I think there's nothing? 230 00:28:10,740 --> 00:28:12,740 That you'll rot and that's it 231 00:28:17,116 --> 00:28:20,098 - After my father died, that's what I decided - Really? 232 00:28:22,708 --> 00:28:24,708 Yeah 233 00:28:28,767 --> 00:28:30,767 I suppose one day we'll 234 00:28:31,705 --> 00:28:33,862 live on in our kids 235 00:28:58,721 --> 00:29:00,721 Did anybody get any sleep? 236 00:29:03,570 --> 00:29:05,786 Sand in sleepbag 237 00:29:09,810 --> 00:29:12,195 Christ, that is a great cup of tea 238 00:29:31,799 --> 00:29:35,377 You make a great cup of tea that gives you real pleasure 239 00:29:35,829 --> 00:29:37,829 Then you go and ruin it 240 00:29:40,528 --> 00:29:43,630 Why don't you finish it then get off your ass and make a new one? 241 00:29:49,889 --> 00:29:55,617 Oh Bill, you were gonna film treefrogs in the Amazons 242 00:29:56,052 --> 00:30:01,293 Save the planet and instead you're filming some heinous piece of daytime TV shit 243 00:30:01,507 --> 00:30:04,975 In order to pay a mortgage to live with a girl that you don't even... 244 00:30:07,874 --> 00:30:11,768 I don't recognize you anymore, you're getting more and more watered down every day 245 00:30:12,465 --> 00:30:14,793 - Nice. Was that rehearsed? - Shut up, Miles! 246 00:30:15,611 --> 00:30:18,111 Jim, lots of people would kill for Bil"s job 247 00:30:19,014 --> 00:30:21,431 At least he's in a relationship unlike any of us 248 00:30:21,485 --> 00:30:25,236 Just... I never seem to get things done the way I thought I would 249 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:28,240 When I am happy I just... 250 00:30:31,716 --> 00:30:33,902 and now... 251 00:30:34,834 --> 00:30:37,607 I love lessons learned through anecdotal observation 252 00:30:39,270 --> 00:30:43,164 Seriously, did you prepare that? Like you finish anything anyway... 253 00:30:50,486 --> 00:30:52,579 - I'm fine - Ignore this 254 00:30:59,114 --> 00:31:01,392 - Shit! - I'm fine 255 00:31:05,681 --> 00:31:08,619 - Give me the joint - Oh, fuck! 256 00:31:09,902 --> 00:31:11,902 Here, take the Phemoryl 257 00:31:46,642 --> 00:31:50,728 Hey, we can get to Goat's Head tomorrow easily. The perfect spot 258 00:31:51,390 --> 00:31:55,154 - Soft grass. Great view - Sounds good 259 00:31:57,943 --> 00:32:00,604 - Miles, you know a lot about women - No 260 00:32:03,103 --> 00:32:06,277 Me and Abby have been together seven years now. And I just... 261 00:32:07,777 --> 00:32:10,655 Bill, we both know that most people settle for 262 00:32:10,686 --> 00:32:14,134 something that they think is better than being alone. 263 00:32:15,686 --> 00:32:21,276 - Great. Is that me? - I don't know. How should I know? 264 00:32:26,430 --> 00:32:29,594 Why do I want the opinion of a man who doesn't believe in love 265 00:32:30,276 --> 00:32:33,577 The love you're talking about is like an addiction 266 00:32:34,276 --> 00:32:37,132 You should be thinking "I can't live without you today". Everyday 267 00:32:37,690 --> 00:32:40,436 You'd do everything to make her want you more 268 00:32:40,467 --> 00:32:42,467 Make her want you 269 00:32:44,276 --> 00:32:47,325 - Someone chinked the armour? - No... 270 00:32:51,089 --> 00:32:53,453 - Okay, do you always tell me the truth? - Yes. 271 00:32:54,692 --> 00:32:57,534 Is there really such a thing as multiple orgasms? 272 00:32:58,595 --> 00:33:00,128 Yes... 273 00:33:00,129 --> 00:33:02,129 Fuck! 274 00:33:02,406 --> 00:33:06,457 I need you guys to hold him down. I have to get this up inside him 275 00:33:10,297 --> 00:33:12,734 - You bastard! - Bastard 276 00:33:12,859 --> 00:33:16,984 Your soap I'm gonna stick it up your arse And you!! 277 00:33:31,263 --> 00:33:33,880 If I'm reading this map right - and I know I am 278 00:33:34,005 --> 00:33:36,705 I'm seriously gonna save us some time 279 00:33:41,556 --> 00:33:45,798 - Can I see the map? - No 280 00:33:54,309 --> 00:33:58,628 - Couldn't we go round that way? - Davy, this is gonna save us a day 281 00:33:58,668 --> 00:34:02,310 - Miles, let's get you strapped up - You can fuck off 282 00:34:02,362 --> 00:34:04,552 - There, lift your arms - Really? 283 00:34:04,677 --> 00:34:09,072 - Why am I going first? - Because you're useless and we can do without you 284 00:34:09,197 --> 00:34:13,015 - Hold it! - Can I have your car if you fall? 285 00:34:13,140 --> 00:34:16,630 - You can fuck off! What are you doing? - Get a grip 286 00:34:16,755 --> 00:34:20,395 - Who's fucking idea was this? - Not mine 287 00:34:20,753 --> 00:34:24,933 - Davy, you're doing well. Lean back into it - Davy! 288 00:34:25,716 --> 00:34:29,246 - Don't. Don't look down just lean back - I'm gonna pull here, mate 289 00:34:29,289 --> 00:34:36,817 - Oh, God - Use your pelvis and your back 290 00:34:36,942 --> 00:34:41,024 - Get down - Oh... oh yeah man 291 00:34:43,258 --> 00:34:45,258 Slowly, slowly 292 00:34:46,504 --> 00:34:51,389 Why am I always the one that's getting it rather than giving it... ah!! 293 00:34:56,433 --> 00:34:58,433 - James! - James! 294 00:34:59,709 --> 00:35:02,464 Tie off his leg 295 00:35:08,906 --> 00:35:11,918 - Got it? - Yeah - Yeah? Good 296 00:35:12,043 --> 00:35:14,043 Go on! 297 00:35:19,614 --> 00:35:21,614 Oh God! 298 00:35:27,256 --> 00:35:30,189 - Are you okay, Jim? - Fine 299 00:35:30,487 --> 00:35:32,487 Nice one Bill! 300 00:35:40,995 --> 00:35:42,995 What do you think it is? 301 00:35:46,228 --> 00:35:48,333 It's a lovely day for it 302 00:35:51,158 --> 00:35:53,158 Is it? 303 00:36:00,398 --> 00:36:02,398 Did you find anything useful? 304 00:36:02,915 --> 00:36:05,296 It depends on one's needs 305 00:36:06,626 --> 00:36:10,294 I'm looking for something pretty specific 306 00:36:15,433 --> 00:36:18,910 Fifteen years ago I was in a bar in Marseille 307 00:36:19,684 --> 00:36:23,396 A Chinaman... a cargoboat skipper 308 00:36:24,082 --> 00:36:26,082 was saying he lost a fortune 309 00:36:26,594 --> 00:36:32,108 A container of Star Wars figures. Yeah? But no ordinary Star Wars figures 310 00:36:32,627 --> 00:36:37,606 faulty Darth Vaders - made brown like Ben Kenobi 311 00:36:37,863 --> 00:36:42,502 instead of black. Unique. Collectable 312 00:36:43,149 --> 00:36:45,791 But he'd lost'em in the storm 313 00:36:46,176 --> 00:36:49,688 The only container to go over board breaking up on the rocks 314 00:36:55,431 --> 00:37:01,829 Now years later I'm here in Pembrokeshire. Walking. Trying to clear my head 315 00:37:03,023 --> 00:37:09,525 A lot. And I see these coves you know and all this... all this rubbish 316 00:37:09,650 --> 00:37:14,911 It should just be beautiful drift wood, not all this industrial flotsam and jetsam 317 00:37:14,964 --> 00:37:19,666 but, you know, men should still wear hats every day, the world's changed 318 00:37:23,349 --> 00:37:25,990 Am... you were talking about the Chinaman 319 00:37:26,641 --> 00:37:33,476 No, nono.. the brown Vaders should be here So everyday I started coming down to look 320 00:37:33,720 --> 00:37:38,665 A month went by. Then two. Then three... 321 00:37:41,581 --> 00:37:44,450 I started thinking I was... crazy 322 00:37:45,363 --> 00:37:48,250 But then one morning I found a yogurt pot 323 00:37:48,924 --> 00:37:53,519 It had a 'sell by' date on it: November 1980 324 00:37:53,644 --> 00:37:57,012 So stuff is being washed up here from that exact year 325 00:37:58,765 --> 00:38:01,120 - Obviously, I kept on looking - Obviously 326 00:38:01,245 --> 00:38:05,623 A year, two years. Still no Brown Vaders 327 00:38:07,518 --> 00:38:09,952 - And then last month... - No! 328 00:38:10,077 --> 00:38:12,077 No, but... 329 00:38:15,282 --> 00:38:17,282 It's a light saber. 330 00:38:17,375 --> 00:38:20,987 from a Darth Vader made between 1980 and 1981 331 00:38:23,721 --> 00:38:25,721 They're here... 332 00:38:26,791 --> 00:38:30,373 - I never heard anything like it in my whole life! - That makes two of us 333 00:38:31,041 --> 00:38:33,788 - I need a piss - No! Let me 334 00:38:34,732 --> 00:38:39,035 - I'm dying to see James's cock, it's been ages - I'm going down there! 335 00:38:42,681 --> 00:38:46,497 - Your friend is ill - No, he's just excitable 336 00:38:46,622 --> 00:38:48,622 Not him, the other one 337 00:38:49,635 --> 00:38:53,094 Yes. He's got cancer. It's terminal 338 00:38:54,064 --> 00:38:59,340 Right. I lost a friend to cancer. My best friend ever 339 00:39:01,435 --> 00:39:04,521 - Sorry. - It's not your fault 340 00:39:04,891 --> 00:39:08,985 It’s just really really, really, really, really, really unlucky. 341 00:39:10,175 --> 00:39:13,496 - Right. - I have other friends 342 00:39:14,374 --> 00:39:16,374 People find me attractive 343 00:39:18,077 --> 00:39:22,606 But I started looking for a new best friend from my existing friends and 344 00:39:23,205 --> 00:39:25,448 then acquaintances, and then new people 345 00:39:28,521 --> 00:39:32,312 - How long are you gonna carry on looking? - For a new best friend? 346 00:39:32,437 --> 00:39:34,963 - No, for the... - Oh 347 00:39:39,386 --> 00:39:43,768 No I tend to look for things. I'm okay 348 00:39:46,130 --> 00:39:51,068 Great to be needed. Isn't it? I'd forgotten 349 00:39:52,928 --> 00:39:55,613 - Maybe you're one of the lucky ones - Yeah 350 00:39:56,930 --> 00:40:03,228 - Rare... a gift. There already 351 00:40:05,499 --> 00:40:07,499 And good 352 00:40:08,855 --> 00:40:13,070 - Thank you, I... thank you - No. Thank YOU 353 00:40:22,192 --> 00:40:24,192 - Where are you going? - To shit 354 00:40:24,820 --> 00:40:26,820 Enjoy your walk 355 00:40:30,878 --> 00:40:35,085 - I LOVE that dude! - I really thought he was going to kill us 356 00:40:35,607 --> 00:40:38,229 Possibly fuck us. And then eat us 357 00:40:38,828 --> 00:40:43,549 - He could turn around and stalk us - He was... I don't know he was actually 358 00:40:46,982 --> 00:40:50,487 Davy. Did he touch your private place? 359 00:40:52,752 --> 00:40:54,916 Okay, that is wrong 360 00:40:56,508 --> 00:40:59,731 It's the third star to the right and then straight on till morning 361 00:40:59,763 --> 00:41:03,365 - Well I thought it was second star - Well, fuck, the one of the lot 362 00:42:05,208 --> 00:42:07,773 You've been hitting the morphine kind of hard 363 00:42:24,495 --> 00:42:28,779 Guys! If this weather keeps up, how about we anchored down here for an extra night? 364 00:42:28,904 --> 00:42:30,904 No. I have to get back to work 365 00:42:31,379 --> 00:42:36,221 I still think we're carrying too much stuff I mean.. the fireworks 366 00:42:37,220 --> 00:42:38,842 - Fireworks? - Davy! 367 00:42:38,843 --> 00:42:40,352 - What fireworks? - You've ruined it! 368 00:42:40,353 --> 00:42:42,353 Sorry, but 369 00:42:42,562 --> 00:42:45,987 We had this idea, because you love looking at the stars and 370 00:42:46,222 --> 00:42:51,002 Dancing through the cosmos that we put on a firework display for you at Barefundle 371 00:42:51,342 --> 00:42:54,271 But they weigh a ton so can we just light the fuckers here? 372 00:43:24,557 --> 00:43:26,557 Did you light all of them? 373 00:43:28,938 --> 00:43:30,955 Fucking hell! 374 00:43:33,875 --> 00:43:36,891 Oh fuck! FUCK!! 375 00:43:57,191 --> 00:44:02,319 Fucking great! What do we do now? You fucking idiot!! 376 00:44:03,176 --> 00:44:06,184 - You idiot! - It was Bill as well! 377 00:44:06,784 --> 00:44:08,784 It was... an accident 378 00:44:12,232 --> 00:44:14,232 You fucking child!! 379 00:44:15,769 --> 00:44:17,589 'Oh my God he's funny!' 380 00:44:17,590 --> 00:44:21,637 Oh how humorous! We're all gonna have to sleep in a tent that was made for... 381 00:44:21,762 --> 00:44:24,027 fucking anorexic pygmeys! 382 00:44:28,944 --> 00:44:30,961 Ah come, we'll have a little cuddle 383 00:44:31,222 --> 00:44:35,377 Right. I got my knife. So any of you starts going 'Brokeback', I'll be going 'Rambo', alright? 384 00:44:35,620 --> 00:44:37,620 Oh, God, you feel good... 385 00:44:41,214 --> 00:44:43,542 So how you turn the light off then? - You twist it round 386 00:44:43,584 --> 00:44:46,075 - What? - Turn the... that's it 387 00:46:26,456 --> 00:46:28,456 Alright? 388 00:46:28,708 --> 00:46:30,708 Yeah 389 00:46:35,266 --> 00:46:38,481 - Dance, dance, wherever you may be - No! 390 00:46:38,606 --> 00:46:41,181 - I am the Lord of the Dance, said he - No! 391 00:46:43,254 --> 00:46:45,254 Who packed these? 392 00:46:47,578 --> 00:46:51,131 You know you can use condoms to cover a microphone actually 393 00:46:51,256 --> 00:46:53,891 To record dolphins underwater. That's what they use 394 00:46:54,016 --> 00:46:56,691 Cool. Everyone get that? It may not come up but - thanks Bill 395 00:46:58,690 --> 00:47:00,918 We shouldn't have cooked all the beans tonight 396 00:47:01,341 --> 00:47:05,014 - We've plenty of food. - I'm not worried about me! 397 00:47:05,139 --> 00:47:06,882 - Jesus, stop! - Stop what? 398 00:47:06,883 --> 00:47:10,269 Stop making sure he gets to do this bloody trip? 399 00:47:10,301 --> 00:47:13,394 You two don't have any idea how much responsibility I have to take so you 400 00:47:13,426 --> 00:47:15,426 can just piss about 401 00:47:16,124 --> 00:47:20,949 - You get thanks all the time - Well, that's nice 402 00:47:23,324 --> 00:47:27,965 - Why are you so desperate to be needed? - I'm glad you see it like that. I don't 403 00:47:28,649 --> 00:47:35,179 I'm grateful!... But what are you gonna do when I'm not around? I can't picture it 404 00:47:36,374 --> 00:47:39,797 - Who knows, Jim? - Yes but before you used to moan about how 405 00:47:39,829 --> 00:47:43,774 you felt you were being taken advantage of at work until you lost your job and then I think 406 00:47:43,899 --> 00:47:46,361 my cancer came along at just the right time 407 00:47:48,821 --> 00:47:52,646 I shall treat you all to a shrink when we get back but for now can we just have a laugh? 408 00:47:53,212 --> 00:47:58,296 It's not about failing it's about finding your... 409 00:47:58,421 --> 00:48:02,459 If you say Raison d'etre I'm going to kill myself - Shut up Miles, this is... 410 00:48:02,491 --> 00:48:06,891 - Repugnant? Boring? - What do you want? What... 411 00:48:07,016 --> 00:48:12,334 - What special thing are you searching for? - James. He's doing fine 412 00:48:13,020 --> 00:48:16,341 - Ok? And your being a bit... harsh - It's not about the cards life dealt you 413 00:48:16,372 --> 00:48:19,371 It's about the hand that you feel safe playing 414 00:48:19,707 --> 00:48:23,358 I thought the tea life making metaphore was good but that was.. exquisite 415 00:48:25,085 --> 00:48:28,763 You know, Miles, it's so easy to take the piss but 'm angry with all of you 416 00:48:34,561 --> 00:48:36,561 I don't want to die! 417 00:48:41,996 --> 00:48:45,474 I want... more time 418 00:48:47,799 --> 00:48:49,799 I want more time 419 00:48:50,939 --> 00:48:54,394 I'd take any one of your pointless consumer-fucker lives! 420 00:48:56,763 --> 00:48:59,272 I was gonna do so much! 421 00:48:59,914 --> 00:49:02,761 I was going to be special. And I know it sounds pompous. It is 422 00:49:02,886 --> 00:49:04,886 You are 423 00:49:06,509 --> 00:49:08,509 You make me sick! 424 00:49:10,908 --> 00:49:15,395 Don't. I love my life. Cancer's no excuse for being an egomaniac 425 00:49:15,775 --> 00:49:19,274 - Why are you special? - Right, so you don't think I would have 426 00:49:19,399 --> 00:49:22,339 amounted to anything as a writer.. - I don't know! That's the point! 427 00:49:22,763 --> 00:49:25,720 But by our age my father had already written three books. 428 00:49:25,751 --> 00:49:30,097 Your writing's good but you only finally sat down to do it because it became too painful to stand up 429 00:49:32,107 --> 00:49:36,313 What? You want to hit me now, you... pissy little arse-licker? 430 00:49:38,279 --> 00:49:41,550 Oh, fuck off! You bore the shit out of me! 431 00:49:41,675 --> 00:49:45,527 We're not your secretaries. We don't run away if you turn nasty 432 00:49:45,652 --> 00:49:49,216 - I'm telling him the truth! - I know! But WHY? 433 00:49:50,042 --> 00:49:54,377 Why are you so cruel? You're just cruel. There's other ways to get what you want 434 00:49:54,752 --> 00:49:58,663 Davy. It's like you're actually looking at my soul through a microscope 435 00:49:58,788 --> 00:50:04,395 I'll have to redeem myself! Davy will you give me Aids! Bill? Rabies? 436 00:50:08,404 --> 00:50:11,251 Come on. Ah, GOD! 437 00:50:11,653 --> 00:50:15,586 We don't need to be doing this! We should be laughing and talking bollocks 438 00:50:15,619 --> 00:50:18,601 about the good old days... - I read your book! 439 00:50:20,357 --> 00:50:22,357 I read it 440 00:50:22,878 --> 00:50:24,878 He finished it years ago 441 00:50:55,333 --> 00:50:58,056 - When did you read it? - Two years ago 442 00:50:58,181 --> 00:51:02,401 I knew you've been writing something and I 443 00:51:03,131 --> 00:51:06,444 snooped around on your computer and there it was. Finished 444 00:51:07,344 --> 00:51:09,216 Hated you for it 445 00:51:09,217 --> 00:51:11,564 I copied it but I... I did't read it 446 00:51:14,111 --> 00:51:16,111 And then I got sick 447 00:51:16,979 --> 00:51:23,304 and I gave in to my desire to... Even though I knew you'd never, ever be able to forgive me 448 00:51:23,429 --> 00:51:27,132 Mate, if you wanted to get somethig off your chest why didn't you just call me? 449 00:51:27,257 --> 00:51:30,818 I'd have come round, we'd have had a chat watch Jaws and pretend that you weren't sick 450 00:51:30,861 --> 00:51:32,982 - I AM sick! - BECAUSE you are!! 451 00:51:34,643 --> 00:51:37,242 And when you're gone, you won't... 452 00:51:37,367 --> 00:51:39,888 know that this is fucking killing me! 453 00:51:41,713 --> 00:51:45,159 It's not worth talking about it, it's not going to change anything. 454 00:51:45,190 --> 00:51:50,598 This is just unnecessary fake soul searching which everyone is doing these days 455 00:51:51,788 --> 00:51:53,788 And I can't even say this REAL stuff 456 00:51:54,239 --> 00:51:57,274 because I just might not get a chance to see you again so I can say... 457 00:51:57,322 --> 00:51:59,215 You don't need to apologise, Miles... 458 00:51:59,216 --> 00:52:03,493 I wasn't going to apologise you arrogant little fuck! I'm right! 459 00:52:03,870 --> 00:52:05,921 And we don't apologise 460 00:52:06,974 --> 00:52:11,059 I can say this shit, and come back in 5 minutes and say nothing. That's the point! 461 00:52:16,440 --> 00:52:19,204 - Your book... - Ah, shut up! 462 00:52:20,686 --> 00:52:23,703 - You know it is. - Jesus this trip has been like a walk with the 463 00:52:23,755 --> 00:52:26,510 sick-white-Oprah! You would hate you right now 464 00:52:32,721 --> 00:52:34,721 Thank you 465 00:52:39,987 --> 00:52:41,987 I'm not afraid of failing now 466 00:52:43,039 --> 00:52:45,039 - I don't have to live in... - I know 467 00:52:46,789 --> 00:52:48,789 You see my dad was so... 468 00:52:49,598 --> 00:52:51,236 Yes, I know 469 00:52:51,237 --> 00:52:54,123 - And now the only other person who I - Yeah, I know 470 00:52:55,214 --> 00:52:59,041 Well, if you're not gonna fucking listen... 471 00:53:14,869 --> 00:53:16,665 Fucking hell 472 00:53:16,666 --> 00:53:22,190 Don't worry about Jim. It's morphine talking. This morning he called me Robert... 473 00:53:22,755 --> 00:53:24,755 You've been fucking hard, Bill 474 00:53:28,802 --> 00:53:30,802 You're psychotic 475 00:53:56,480 --> 00:53:59,035 - You promised! - I've gotta get it. It's important 476 00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:00,971 What, more important than this trip? 477 00:54:00,972 --> 00:54:03,890 - Aw, Davy has a phone - For emergencies 478 00:54:04,632 --> 00:54:07,448 It's not about the phone, it's about you not wanting to be here 479 00:54:07,573 --> 00:54:10,287 - Alright. Give me the phone! - Guys, guys, the cart! 480 00:54:14,409 --> 00:54:16,409 Davy! Davy! 481 00:54:20,042 --> 00:54:23,345 - What the fuck are you doing? - You would have gone over with it! 482 00:54:23,470 --> 00:54:26,534 - I would have got it you twat! - He just saved your life 483 00:54:27,934 --> 00:54:30,332 You think he likes me more than you, you whiny poof! 484 00:54:34,936 --> 00:54:41,629 - Why do people keep throwing my stuff in the sea? - Ok, ok. That.. also was an accident. 485 00:54:42,938 --> 00:54:45,719 The phone was bad. Bad, Davy! 486 00:54:46,335 --> 00:54:49,594 But it's not the end of the world. Miles your company knows you've gone into the wild 487 00:54:49,625 --> 00:54:52,233 It's not that simple! Everything's fucked 488 00:54:53,303 --> 00:54:56,241 It's all shit and people rely on me 489 00:54:57,171 --> 00:54:59,171 The banks called in the loan 490 00:55:00,248 --> 00:55:02,034 I'm going under 491 00:55:02,035 --> 00:55:04,525 Miles is failing. Are you happy about that? 492 00:55:04,650 --> 00:55:07,802 Boys. Boys! 493 00:55:09,358 --> 00:55:11,497 We have a poblem 494 00:55:13,162 --> 00:55:15,820 We'll just have to camp here till one of us goes back and gets help 495 00:55:15,851 --> 00:55:18,186 No. We haven't finished the walk 496 00:55:18,416 --> 00:55:21,249 Mate, you weren't doing that much walking, and your transport's gone! 497 00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:23,529 We'll call your dad. Maybe stay at a B and B on the mainland and maybe he can... 498 00:55:23,560 --> 00:55:25,011 - Where's your phone? - In my bag 499 00:55:25,012 --> 00:55:27,852 Uh. No. I'm afraid it's in my bag... on the cart. 500 00:55:27,977 --> 00:55:29,977 This is un-fucking-believeable 501 00:55:30,071 --> 00:55:33,780 - There's a kind of amazing natural symmetry to.. - Shut up, Bill. 502 00:55:33,905 --> 00:55:35,772 - Where's the map? - It's in the cart 503 00:55:35,773 --> 00:55:38,735 - We're going on, it's not far. I'll walk it. I can. - James! 504 00:55:38,860 --> 00:55:43,577 No, Davy! I'm going on. I just want one night there 505 00:55:44,703 --> 00:55:47,814 If you won't come with me, I'll go on my own. I have to 506 00:55:48,310 --> 00:55:52,604 I have to. I'm not finished yet! 507 00:55:59,812 --> 00:56:02,446 We may be closer to the emergency phone at Barafundle. So... 508 00:56:03,059 --> 00:56:06,849 either that or I run back to the last phone. Reckon I can jog it in five hours 509 00:56:06,880 --> 00:56:08,607 When did you last run for five hours? 510 00:56:08,608 --> 00:56:11,829 If we go on we should stick together in case we have to carry him 511 00:56:16,352 --> 00:56:18,838 So should I tell him or let him keep going? 512 00:56:19,125 --> 00:56:21,125 James, stop! 513 00:56:23,810 --> 00:56:26,009 Are you coming to Barafundle? 514 00:56:27,680 --> 00:56:29,680 We are. But it's that way 515 00:57:18,807 --> 00:57:20,216 - Davy - What? 516 00:57:20,217 --> 00:57:22,813 What do you really think about what I said to you earlier? 517 00:57:22,844 --> 00:57:25,804 You've no right to talk to me like that. None. 518 00:57:26,808 --> 00:57:29,373 Why didn’t you say so in front of the others? 519 00:57:31,571 --> 00:57:33,855 Loyalty you prick 520 00:57:35,119 --> 00:57:38,096 Don't put out the fire with your piss, Bill. It stinks! 521 00:58:17,337 --> 00:58:20,573 Is this all the gas we have? Bill? 522 00:58:22,067 --> 00:58:24,067 He's asleep 523 00:58:27,942 --> 00:58:29,953 God it's good to see him off the leash. 524 00:58:30,368 --> 00:58:34,005 He's a beautiful, bighearted force of nature 525 00:58:34,130 --> 00:58:37,395 And she crushes every natural urge in him. It's a horrible relationship 526 00:58:37,520 --> 00:58:39,294 How do you know what he wants? 527 00:58:39,295 --> 00:58:41,271 Abby's pregnant 528 00:58:41,272 --> 00:58:43,272 Oh, fuck 529 00:58:43,648 --> 00:58:45,648 Why didn't you say anything? 530 00:58:46,183 --> 00:58:48,270 I wanted to enjoy the walk 531 00:58:51,166 --> 00:58:53,569 - Con.. congratulations... - Don't! 532 00:58:53,947 --> 00:58:58,700 I'm not saying it's good news, in the circumstances, but you'll be a brill... 533 00:58:58,825 --> 00:59:00,825 Is it definitely yours? 534 00:59:02,037 --> 00:59:04,760 - Far as I know. - And she wants to keep it? 535 00:59:07,038 --> 00:59:10,416 - Baby or not... if she isn't the one... - Of course she isn't the one! 536 00:59:10,585 --> 00:59:13,380 Then use this as the opportunity to have a fresh start, Billy... 537 00:59:13,505 --> 00:59:15,505 Shut the FUCK up, Jim! 538 00:59:15,627 --> 00:59:18,138 Yeah. It all gets watered down 539 00:59:18,338 --> 00:59:20,990 But I stick to my decisions, however shit 540 00:59:21,438 --> 00:59:25,181 And when all my dreams come to nothing, I'll be around to bloody see it! 541 00:59:28,193 --> 00:59:32,490 You should have told me before! You should have fucking told me! 542 00:59:41,824 --> 00:59:43,824 Oh, shit. 543 01:00:00,548 --> 01:00:03,443 Man, you really showed that tree... 544 01:00:08,363 --> 01:00:13,353 - Listen, I'm sorry about your tree - No, I wouldn't want it any other way 545 01:00:14,677 --> 01:00:17,763 My tree will drift away 546 01:00:17,888 --> 01:00:22,057 and will wash up on some distant shore. It's perfect 547 01:00:30,676 --> 01:00:32,676 You alright, Davy? 548 01:00:40,310 --> 01:00:42,310 Wait, wait, Miles! 549 01:02:12,854 --> 01:02:15,949 - Jim! - Are you alright? Breathe 550 01:02:22,146 --> 01:02:25,643 Fuck it. We have to get him back. I'll run on,Bill, you run back 551 01:02:25,768 --> 01:02:28,129 - We might see a boat or... or... - Shut up, Miles. 552 01:02:28,254 --> 01:02:30,027 - We're fine. - Bil! Bill! 553 01:02:30,028 --> 01:02:32,467 - This is ridiculous! - I don't know. 554 01:02:32,592 --> 01:02:35,757 - Jesus! - You cary Jim for a bit 555 01:02:35,882 --> 01:02:37,882 Don't tell me what to do 556 01:02:39,106 --> 01:02:41,332 - Why? - You feeling all hard now?! Why? 557 01:02:41,457 --> 01:02:44,273 Because I didn't kick your arse for chucking my phone in the sea! Because I'm actually right! 558 01:02:44,304 --> 01:02:46,808 Just. Shut. Up! 559 01:02:47,634 --> 01:02:50,480 This isn't about you right now Pick him up! 560 01:02:51,585 --> 01:02:54,010 - Pick him up! - Fuck you! 561 01:02:54,314 --> 01:02:56,809 Pick him up, you fucking coward! 562 01:03:04,614 --> 01:03:07,289 - I think we should stop them. - Yeah well, I know we should but 563 01:03:07,320 --> 01:03:09,320 it's kinda fascinating... 564 01:03:12,713 --> 01:03:15,651 Alright, let's call it a draw... 565 01:03:16,790 --> 01:03:21,213 I liked the little 'EEEK!' noise you made when he got you in a head lock 566 01:03:28,540 --> 01:03:33,670 I mean - why are you even here Miles? We didn't expect you to turn up 567 01:03:34,522 --> 01:03:37,077 This is actually happening 568 01:03:37,303 --> 01:03:40,494 And it hurts. And it's amazing. 569 01:03:40,618 --> 01:03:44,925 I've been around for it all. He needed me and I was there for him and I'm really sorry 570 01:03:45,050 --> 01:03:48,114 you have such a problem with that - Davy. You're right 571 01:03:49,581 --> 01:03:51,581 I wasn't gonna come 572 01:03:57,452 --> 01:04:00,493 Your illness disgusts me. It shocks me 573 01:04:01,362 --> 01:04:06,013 I couldn't physically be around it It's true, I haven't been there for you 574 01:04:07,716 --> 01:04:09,716 I'm sorry 575 01:04:17,391 --> 01:04:19,391 Come on, you bugger 576 01:05:35,442 --> 01:05:39,371 Jesus! Barafundle Bay 577 01:05:42,153 --> 01:05:46,803 Actually do you know what? This isn't the one I was thinking of... 578 01:05:51,373 --> 01:05:53,373 Thank you 579 01:07:36,821 --> 01:07:41,707 Is there anything so peaceful as the sound of the ocean? 580 01:07:46,078 --> 01:07:48,078 I'm sorry 581 01:07:49,243 --> 01:07:54,429 Who the fuck am I to tell you how to live your lives? I mean I was just... 582 01:07:54,554 --> 01:07:57,054 I'm fucking your sister 583 01:08:05,520 --> 01:08:09,597 I am totally and utterly in love with her and I have been for ten years 584 01:08:11,264 --> 01:08:13,264 Shit! 585 01:08:13,524 --> 01:08:20,156 I watched her marry Mike and I did nothing. Have children, let her do her comfortable life 586 01:08:20,643 --> 01:08:23,181 I wanted her. I pursued her. And I got her 587 01:08:24,824 --> 01:08:26,824 My God! 588 01:08:27,379 --> 01:08:31,734 We met up when you got sick. It's... a... It's ironic, isn't it? 589 01:08:32,134 --> 01:08:34,134 Yeah 590 01:08:35,350 --> 01:08:38,853 One day, soon, she's gonna bring the girls to my house 591 01:08:41,148 --> 01:08:43,295 We're perfect for each other 592 01:09:11,685 --> 01:09:13,685 James 593 01:09:16,408 --> 01:09:19,537 I knew she had a thing for you but then every woman does 594 01:09:19,745 --> 01:09:22,014 So what's the big fucking surprise then? 595 01:09:22,298 --> 01:09:25,437 You can have anyone you wanted. Why her? 596 01:09:25,881 --> 01:09:27,881 You know why 597 01:09:29,792 --> 01:09:31,931 The kids! What about the girls? 598 01:09:33,225 --> 01:09:35,994 - I'm gonna take care of them - Oh, God! When were you gonna 599 01:09:36,119 --> 01:09:38,159 tell me any of this? 600 01:09:41,784 --> 01:09:45,947 - You weren't gonna tell me - No 601 01:09:52,618 --> 01:09:56,356 - Do you want my blessing? - No. I'll do it anyway 602 01:09:56,640 --> 01:09:58,640 - Yeah - Yeah 603 01:09:59,186 --> 01:10:02,854 James, listen. Listen! 604 01:10:04,154 --> 01:10:08,344 There is one thing that my father said to me that is bigger than everything. And anyone 605 01:10:09,040 --> 01:10:12,583 And if I was any son of his, I'll figure out what it is 606 01:10:13,175 --> 01:10:15,175 I have 607 01:10:20,215 --> 01:10:22,614 I hope it works out for you 608 01:10:48,835 --> 01:10:51,534 There is no ribbon to tie around it all is there? 609 01:10:53,242 --> 01:10:56,081 I thought I was ready. Now I... 610 01:10:56,380 --> 01:10:58,862 I look at Bill and I think 611 01:10:59,788 --> 01:11:02,369 If I could get through another nine months 612 01:11:02,595 --> 01:11:06,664 Hold on long enough to see Chloe sorted out with or without... 613 01:11:10,267 --> 01:11:13,969 I'm leaving early. And it all goes on without me 614 01:11:18,776 --> 01:11:24,226 The strange thing is - this is what I was most afraid of. 615 01:11:25,760 --> 01:11:27,760 But now it's... 616 01:11:29,176 --> 01:11:31,176 It's a relief, Milo 617 01:11:32,931 --> 01:11:35,469 Such a bloody relief! 618 01:12:23,889 --> 01:12:25,231 How's the book? 619 01:12:25,232 --> 01:12:28,779 I think it's more interesting with half the page missing 620 01:12:29,401 --> 01:12:31,401 I'm going for a swim 621 01:12:31,953 --> 01:12:34,213 - Your mom said... - I know 622 01:12:35,522 --> 01:12:40,582 Tomorrow, I'm gonna swim out into the middle of the bay and I'm not coming back. 623 01:12:43,363 --> 01:12:47,301 I know the enormity of this, and I am asking you 624 01:12:49,983 --> 01:12:51,983 to let me swim 625 01:12:54,947 --> 01:12:56,999 - No - No 626 01:12:57,124 --> 01:13:00,734 - Jim. We can't let you mate. - You can. 627 01:13:01,512 --> 01:13:03,723 The question is: will you? 628 01:13:04,227 --> 01:13:06,971 Has this been your plan all along? 629 01:13:11,922 --> 01:13:14,968 I thought you wanted to live. Why would... 630 01:13:15,156 --> 01:13:18,459 Because this is how my life is gonna be from now on 631 01:13:20,403 --> 01:13:22,403 Because of the pain 632 01:13:22,795 --> 01:13:27,841 Because of the drugs that I take for the pain, because of the drugs that I take 633 01:13:27,966 --> 01:13:30,448 for the side-effects of the other drugs... You've seen it 634 01:13:30,573 --> 01:13:32,573 It's only gonna get worse 635 01:13:34,231 --> 01:13:37,243 My life is all up here now really, but 636 01:13:38,758 --> 01:13:43,765 it's taking over and gradually I'll slip further and further into thinking solely about pain 637 01:13:43,890 --> 01:13:46,679 and that's not worth living for 638 01:13:47,127 --> 01:13:49,108 I don’t know what the pain’s like 639 01:13:49,109 --> 01:13:51,081 but surely we can... - What? 640 01:13:51,082 --> 01:13:54,876 - I don't know. I can't... - You can 641 01:13:58,040 --> 01:14:02,508 - What would we tell your mum and dad? - This is insane! I can't believe you're talking 642 01:14:02,633 --> 01:14:04,633 about it normally! 643 01:14:05,090 --> 01:14:10,810 The same as you'll tell the police. That you woke up in the morning and I'd gone. 644 01:14:10,841 --> 01:14:13,330 That you searched the dunes and then you saw something floating in the sea. 645 01:14:13,361 --> 01:14:16,142 You went to get me but by then it was too late 646 01:14:24,826 --> 01:14:29,402 every time I'd saw your family I'd know they could have had you for another day 647 01:14:29,616 --> 01:14:31,218 To say goodbye properly 648 01:14:31,219 --> 01:14:34,623 That's just it, there won't be a better goodbye than the one we just had. 649 01:14:35,803 --> 01:14:39,811 There will. It isn't time yet. 650 01:14:40,032 --> 01:14:45,782 I have never been so alive. And now I want to end it 651 01:14:49,024 --> 01:14:54,930 I want to finally... finish something. 652 01:14:55,808 --> 01:14:59,373 Why don't you just go home and take an overdose like normal people. 653 01:15:00,138 --> 01:15:03,417 - It’d be painless. You’d just fall asleep. - It would be giving in. 654 01:15:03,542 --> 01:15:08,612 If I swim out and the sea takes me, it's different. I would be making the choice 655 01:15:09,971 --> 01:15:14,882 I want to be conscious until I'm gone, I want to feel something even if it’s the pain 656 01:15:15,247 --> 01:15:19,432 of salt water in my lungs. I want to FEEL 657 01:15:19,924 --> 01:15:21,913 the fight. 658 01:15:21,914 --> 01:15:25,339 Something... huge... 659 01:15:26,130 --> 01:15:30,027 and... terrifying 660 01:15:32,348 --> 01:15:34,348 and brave 661 01:15:38,072 --> 01:15:40,897 I promised your mum I'd bring you back. 662 01:15:50,245 --> 01:15:52,314 Sorry James. 663 01:15:58,956 --> 01:16:00,956 Okay 664 01:16:04,118 --> 01:16:06,118 Okay, I'm sorry. 665 01:16:09,630 --> 01:16:11,682 It's too much to ask 666 01:16:40,407 --> 01:16:43,806 Davy... Davy! 667 01:16:52,530 --> 01:16:54,651 I can't find his meds bag 668 01:16:54,682 --> 01:16:57,798 Must have slipped out 669 01:17:00,682 --> 01:17:03,290 He doesn't have any morphine left 670 01:17:03,322 --> 01:17:06,124 I'm not fucking deaf! 671 01:17:07,366 --> 01:17:09,531 We'll find it. Miles! 672 01:17:17,316 --> 01:17:20,445 Davy! Davy! 673 01:17:35,851 --> 01:17:37,071 Miles! 674 01:17:37,072 --> 01:17:39,072 Fuck 675 01:17:47,101 --> 01:17:51,865 I can't breathe! I can't... 676 01:18:07,864 --> 01:18:09,864 Shit! 677 01:18:25,811 --> 01:18:28,958 - Miles! Miles, I got it! - Jesus! 678 01:18:37,256 --> 01:18:41,133 Anybody there? James! 679 01:18:47,850 --> 01:18:52,005 James,i've got it. James! 680 01:21:52,375 --> 01:21:55,330 Sorry. Sorry 681 01:21:58,546 --> 01:22:01,884 You've nearly outlived Davy 682 01:22:07,757 --> 01:22:11,852 You've ruined this camping trip. Can we go home now, please? 683 01:22:12,322 --> 01:22:14,599 Ah, James. I'm scared 684 01:22:17,338 --> 01:22:19,338 Sorry 685 01:22:20,241 --> 01:22:23,214 If you can't do this, tell me 686 01:22:25,718 --> 01:22:28,387 I'll swim as far as I can 687 01:22:33,737 --> 01:22:36,988 I'd rather not be alone, mate 688 01:22:42,764 --> 01:22:45,337 Please... Miles 689 01:22:45,589 --> 01:22:47,589 Do this 690 01:22:52,057 --> 01:22:53,325 Miles! 691 01:22:53,326 --> 01:22:55,326 Please! 692 01:26:50,034 --> 01:26:53,590 So I raise a morphine toast to you all 693 01:26:54,207 --> 01:26:58,875 And, if you should happen to remember, it's the anniversary of my birth 694 01:26:59,183 --> 01:27:01,965 Remember that you were loved by me 695 01:27:02,356 --> 01:27:05,468 And that you made my life a happy one 696 01:27:06,503 --> 01:27:08,902 And there's no tragedy in that